I'm alright. Thanks for asking. I've been lazy, but I've been reading a lot, I've finished about five books since arriving in Italy, but know i'm taking a break from that. I figure I can read when I'm home, not when I should be exploring Italy. It's just that I haven't really been exploring. That costs money, and my family here isn't loaded, and that's totally normal. I didn't expect anything when I planned my trip here, all I wanted was to connect with my roots and possibly figure out what I want to do with my life. So far I haven't figured it all out, life as we all know is a real mystery, and that annoys me so much. Sometimes I feel as though there is no point to anything and then I just feel extremely sad for a long period of time. When I get out of that cloud for a short while, I start to wonder what could make me happy, and I'm never certain. I often wonder if I'll ever be happy, just a normal happy person, not extremely happy, just someone able to smile a few times a day and not have to think about the horrors of humanity and the world every hour. I've lost my train of thought and i'm not even sure where I wanted this post to go anymore... I suppose I just want you all to know that i'm alive, I'm kinda okay, and yeah... I'll be in Italy till the end of August.
I am suffering though, send help. My Zio (uncle) Paulo isn't letting me eat bread... I KNOW RIGHT. I'm in Italy and I can't have bread, it's almost sacrilegious. I know it's for my health and blah blah blah but come on... Queue meme *I came here to eat bread and I'm honestly feeling so attacked right now*
I'll get over it, not having bread isn't the end of the world. I have given up eating meat though! Beef actually, not all meat, I can't give it all up at once, but maybe a slow transition will get me to become a vegetarian or maybe even a vegan someday, far farrrrrr into the future. I'm starting with beef because I love cows, they're so cute and I hear "Moos" all the time around here. I love them so much that I can't picture eating them anymore. I even have a stuffed cow that I love (yes, i'm almost 21 years old, shut up). I feel like this will be good for me in the long run, let's see how it goes.
What else can I report... ah! Yes! I've been trying out Capoeira in these days. I attempted to knock my Zio Paulo to the ground and got a nice elbow in the face, awesome. Barely missed my right eye. Didn't cry though, so I feel pretty cool about it. Yesterday I went to their group lesson in the park, I thought I was dying. Still can't kick all that well, but I can cartwheel as good as when I was a kid, which is surprising as I thought my body was as lame as a horse with a broken leg. I kept up as much as I could and I think I did alright. More on that in the future if I continue.
I'm also doing this thing called Pancafit, read more about it here if you want (You might have translate it to English). Basically I'm being fixed, physically speaking, posture and other errors.
That's about it with what's been going on with me~
This is the part where it gets real heavy and peoples' biases and opinions will start consuming their brains like a zombie virus: (please excuse the vulgar language)
Not sure what to say after everything above now... It's been real weird guys, have a great day and try not to shoot a bunch of people, be decent humans, seek help if you are having problem, vote correctly and against corruption, be smart, be brave, be a nice fucking person and don't be a dick because the world already sucks and we need good people around. Sigh, I don't know what anyone will get out of this post, but overall the take away should be #wheresthebread #feelthebern #neverhillary #dontrape #dontvictimblame #teachkidsdecency and #dontbeadick also #use_lesshastags and #ElisabethWarrenisasellout and so is #obamasucks and I've lost all my #respect for him with his #endorsementofthedevilwhowearsprada #whiletalkingaboutpoverty
It's been real, peace.