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I'm sorry I haven't posted anything in a month, I've been busy, but also very lazy. And when i'm not lazy i'm not in the mood to write, so yeah, I'm sorry for being so me. I've had writer's block for weeks now, only writing consistently in a journal everyday until recently. I suppose I've got life writer's block as well, since I'm not even writing what I do day to day, as though I can't remember what I've done or anything. It's weird. Any advice would be lovely, I'm looking at you Jacque, my only consistent reader (thank you <3). My site says others visit, but WHO ARE YOU PEOPLE? Seriously I'd like to know if all of you guys are humans and or cyborgs from the future sent to save the world, or just government spies keeping tabs on civilians... Anyway, enough paranoia.
I'm alright. Thanks for asking. I've been lazy, but I've been reading a lot, I've finished about five books since arriving in Italy, but know i'm taking a break from that. I figure I can read when I'm home, not when I should be exploring Italy. It's just that I haven't really been exploring. That costs money, and my family here isn't loaded, and that's totally normal. I didn't expect anything when I planned my trip here, all I wanted was to connect with my roots and possibly figure out what I want to do with my life. So far I haven't figured it all out, life as we all know is a real mystery, and that annoys me so much. Sometimes I feel as though there is no point to anything and then I just feel extremely sad for a long period of time. When I get out of that cloud for a short while, I start to wonder what could make me happy, and I'm never certain. I often wonder if I'll ever be happy, just a normal happy person, not extremely happy, just someone able to smile a few times a day and not have to think about the horrors of humanity and the world every hour. I've lost my train of thought and i'm not even sure where I wanted this post to go anymore... I suppose I just want you all to know that i'm alive, I'm kinda okay, and yeah... I'll be in Italy till the end of August.
I am suffering though, send help. My Zio (uncle) Paulo isn't letting me eat bread... I KNOW RIGHT. I'm in Italy and I can't have bread, it's almost sacrilegious. I know it's for my health and blah blah blah but come on... Queue meme *I came here to eat bread and I'm honestly feeling so attacked right now*
I'll get over it, not having bread isn't the end of the world. I have given up eating meat though! Beef actually, not all meat, I can't give it all up at once, but maybe a slow transition will get me to become a vegetarian or maybe even a vegan someday, far farrrrrr into the future. I'm starting with beef because I love cows, they're so cute and I hear "Moos" all the time around here. I love them so much that I can't picture eating them anymore. I even have a stuffed cow that I love (yes, i'm almost 21 years old, shut up). I feel like this will be good for me in the long run, let's see how it goes.
What else can I report... ah! Yes! I've been trying out Capoeira in these days. I attempted to knock my Zio Paulo to the ground and got a nice elbow in the face, awesome. Barely missed my right eye. Didn't cry though, so I feel pretty cool about it. Yesterday I went to their group lesson in the park, I thought I was dying. Still can't kick all that well, but I can cartwheel as good as when I was a kid, which is surprising as I thought my body was as lame as a horse with a broken leg. I kept up as much as I could and I think I did alright. More on that in the future if I continue.
I'm also doing this thing called Pancafit, read more about it here if you want (You might have translate it to English). Basically I'm being fixed, physically speaking, posture and other errors.
I'm alright. Thanks for asking. I've been lazy, but I've been reading a lot, I've finished about five books since arriving in Italy, but know i'm taking a break from that. I figure I can read when I'm home, not when I should be exploring Italy. It's just that I haven't really been exploring. That costs money, and my family here isn't loaded, and that's totally normal. I didn't expect anything when I planned my trip here, all I wanted was to connect with my roots and possibly figure out what I want to do with my life. So far I haven't figured it all out, life as we all know is a real mystery, and that annoys me so much. Sometimes I feel as though there is no point to anything and then I just feel extremely sad for a long period of time. When I get out of that cloud for a short while, I start to wonder what could make me happy, and I'm never certain. I often wonder if I'll ever be happy, just a normal happy person, not extremely happy, just someone able to smile a few times a day and not have to think about the horrors of humanity and the world every hour. I've lost my train of thought and i'm not even sure where I wanted this post to go anymore... I suppose I just want you all to know that i'm alive, I'm kinda okay, and yeah... I'll be in Italy till the end of August.
I am suffering though, send help. My Zio (uncle) Paulo isn't letting me eat bread... I KNOW RIGHT. I'm in Italy and I can't have bread, it's almost sacrilegious. I know it's for my health and blah blah blah but come on... Queue meme *I came here to eat bread and I'm honestly feeling so attacked right now*
I'll get over it, not having bread isn't the end of the world. I have given up eating meat though! Beef actually, not all meat, I can't give it all up at once, but maybe a slow transition will get me to become a vegetarian or maybe even a vegan someday, far farrrrrr into the future. I'm starting with beef because I love cows, they're so cute and I hear "Moos" all the time around here. I love them so much that I can't picture eating them anymore. I even have a stuffed cow that I love (yes, i'm almost 21 years old, shut up). I feel like this will be good for me in the long run, let's see how it goes.
What else can I report... ah! Yes! I've been trying out Capoeira in these days. I attempted to knock my Zio Paulo to the ground and got a nice elbow in the face, awesome. Barely missed my right eye. Didn't cry though, so I feel pretty cool about it. Yesterday I went to their group lesson in the park, I thought I was dying. Still can't kick all that well, but I can cartwheel as good as when I was a kid, which is surprising as I thought my body was as lame as a horse with a broken leg. I kept up as much as I could and I think I did alright. More on that in the future if I continue.
I'm also doing this thing called Pancafit, read more about it here if you want (You might have translate it to English). Basically I'm being fixed, physically speaking, posture and other errors.
I'm going to Belgium at the end of the month for a few days! I'm excited because I get to see my cousin Francesca who is going to school there for dance. She's a badass ballerina, i'm excited to see her and that I get to watch her perform! It'll be a nice short trip with my Zia (aunt) Giovanna.
That's about it with what's been going on with me~
That's about it with what's been going on with me~
This is the part where it gets real heavy and peoples' biases and opinions will start consuming their brains like a zombie virus: (please excuse the vulgar language)
I've been keeping up with everything going on in the U.S. and frankly i'm disgusted and angry about everything that's going on. Voter fraud, the destruction of real journalism (ANNOUNCING THAT A PRES. CANDIDATE HAS WON THE NOMINATION ON A DAY WHEN NO ONE FUCKING VOTED. IT'S NOT OVER YOU CORPORATE PUPPETS #FEELTHEBERN #NEVERHILLARY #DOWNWITHTHEDNC #BERNIEORBUST #STEPDOWNDWS #POLITICALREVOLUTION #FUCKTHECLINTONS #THESEAREALOTOFHASTAGSBUTIMSUPERPISSEDOFFWITHALLTHISCORRUPTIONANDGOVERNMENTLIES), i'm horrified by all the killing that has gone on. I am shocked and deeply saddened by what happened in Orlando and by the killing of a youtube star/singer. I hope that one day people will no longer have to suffer losses such as this. I'm disgusted by what has happen, but I also believe that this could be a part of some larger conspiracy. I won't go into detail about it. I am just so sick of the U.S. at this point. I really will move to Canada or something if this bullshit continues. Why can't we all just be peaceful and love each other and not be corrupt corporate anus lickers. Sorry for the vulgar language, but I'm just so upset and 'so done' as the kids say.
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With all the murdering and fraud going on I almost forgot about the Stanford Rape case. I'm disgusted that rape culture is prominent in our society. I can't fucking understand how we do the things we do and how we let things like this happen or let people that do these horrible acts get off with nothing, let alone factoring in the different treatment of cases based on race. A RAPIST IS A RAPIST, I DON'T GIVE A FLYING FUCK WHAT COLOR THEY ARE, THEY DESERVE THE SAME PUNISHMENT, AND I PROPOSE THAT THE PUNISHMENT BE: BEING RAPED OVER AND OVER AGAIN UNTIL THEY ARE FUCKED TO DEATH. That may sound harsh, but I feel that the punishment should fit the crime. Women should not be objectified or blamed for being raped. The simple answer is DON'T RAPE PEOPLE, but the world is not as simple as it should be. Parents need to teach their sons early on that disrespecting women is wrong, that women are people, not objects or conquests. I write about rape culture and objectification in my essay titled "Disney Damage and Princess Culture," under the essays tab if you want to learn more. I just can't even anymore...
Not sure what to say after everything above now... It's been real weird guys, have a great day and try not to shoot a bunch of people, be decent humans, seek help if you are having problem, vote correctly and against corruption, be smart, be brave, be a nice fucking person and don't be a dick because the world already sucks and we need good people around. Sigh, I don't know what anyone will get out of this post, but overall the take away should be #wheresthebread #feelthebern #neverhillary #dontrape #dontvictimblame #teachkidsdecency and #dontbeadick also #use_lesshastags and #ElisabethWarrenisasellout and so is #obamasucks and I've lost all my #respect for him with his #endorsementofthedevilwhowearsprada #whiletalkingaboutpoverty
It's been real, peace.
*mic drop*
-Cristina
Not sure what to say after everything above now... It's been real weird guys, have a great day and try not to shoot a bunch of people, be decent humans, seek help if you are having problem, vote correctly and against corruption, be smart, be brave, be a nice fucking person and don't be a dick because the world already sucks and we need good people around. Sigh, I don't know what anyone will get out of this post, but overall the take away should be #wheresthebread #feelthebern #neverhillary #dontrape #dontvictimblame #teachkidsdecency and #dontbeadick also #use_lesshastags and #ElisabethWarrenisasellout and so is #obamasucks and I've lost all my #respect for him with his #endorsementofthedevilwhowearsprada #whiletalkingaboutpoverty
It's been real, peace.
*mic drop*
-Cristina
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Nature around Rivalta #thatsadonkey #alsoknownasanass #dontbeone
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