I've never really understood reddit and just checked it occasionally for the asoiaf (Game of Thrones) sub, but today i'm really getting into it. Reddit is leading me to some hilarious stuff, and i'm excited but also scared to see where it will take me.
A mule, that I usually see while walking through a forest trail , escaped from her farm yesterday. She was in the middle of the trail, not far from home, but it was sort of sad. It seemed as though she really were trying to get away, but she wasn't doing much, just standing on the trail. I pet her like I've done in the past and she seemed to look into my eyes. I swear I saw her shed a tear and it broke my heart. I wish I could keep her, take her back to Chicago with me somehow, but then I wouldn't have anywhere to house her... damn it.
I've been doing capoeira. I think i'm decent at it and my kicks are pretty high, but I hate that I have to learn the music as well. I know it's important to the culture and all that , but I just can't get into. It makes me want to stop altogether. I'm just not the tambourine playing type, and I most definitely don't want to learn to play the Berimbau, a traditional African instrument... it hurts my hand just to hold it. Is it too much to ask for if I just want to kick ass and throw people down for looking at me sideways? Sigh...
I've given up bread again, the struggle is real. I haven't eaten beef in over a month now, and I still feel pretty good about that. Cows are just so adorable!
I've been working out, doing this stretch everyday to one day achieve a split, some random yoga, abs, etc, it's nice to get back to it. I started waking up early to go running as well, but lately I just can't wake up, so I need to get back into it.
Honestly, I've been feeling pretty depressed these past few days. Might have to do with some boredom and overthinking. Overthinking always leads me to existential thoughts that cause me to freak out and just get... you know... depressed. I'm trying not to think. Don't think... It helps that I've been talking to a friend lately and that helps to distract me. He's really nice.
I'm still attempting to write every day, but I missed two days so I posted some writing I did a month or so ago. All cute bs if you ask me, but this way I'll have to keep up. I can't keep posting older writing if I run out of old writing due to not writing at all which means no old writing. I hope that made sense.
I'm still waiting to know if i'll get to go to Calabria to see my great grandmother, who's 92, and I hope it happens because I don't think it's possible to wait anymore. She fell a few months ago and just won't really leave her bed anymore, so it seems like a now or never type of situation. I hope I get to meet her. I really want to hear all about WWII, i'm such a history nerd. I actually wrote about her once for a class I took a few semesters ago, I wonder if I still have the file... If I do i'll post it, or maybe add a new page to my site dedicated to family history or something like that.
I can't believe August is almost here. That means my dad will be coming to Italy, and then going to my cousin Celine's wedding in France, then my 21st birthday, and then my last year of University starts the day after I get back from Italy... wow.
I'm not sure why I wanted to write this up, but I suppose I was just bored. I hope for your sake, whoever you are reading this, that you didn't die of boredom while reading about my life. Maybe no one is even reading, that 's actually better for me, this way I don't have to worry about entertaining anyone. Yay for me.