08.06.15

I Suppose

I suppose I understand why you don’t want me
I suppose I understand why I can’t be with you 
I suppose I understand why we’ll never be together 
I suppose I understand why you are the way you are
I love you, I really do
You love, I know you do
If I think too much it makes me angry
If I think about you as anything more I get sad
For some reason I can’t have you 
You are the way you are
I get it, or at least I think I do
I suppose it’s just not meant to be
Or whatever other bullshit excuse I come up with to help me cope
I suppose it’ll all work out for just like you say it will, but it never includes you
I’m not sure I want that
I don’t want to be with any one right now, but the only exception would be you
It’s fucking ridiculous right? A Cliché?
We want want what we can’t have and the like
It’s all bullshit right?
I know it is
I suppose it’s true
What if i somehow do get you?
Will I still want you in the same way?
Maybe I’ll get tired of you
Maybe I’ll grow to hate you 
I don’t want that, not at all
I suppose I just don’t know what I want
I just know that I’d like the option of having you even for a moment
I want to hear your voice, and laugh with you
Hug you until you’re uncomfortable, but learn to just give in to my embrace 
Nothing too dramatic or drastic 
And nothing too plain and boring
Anyway I don’t know what I’m saying anymore
Just give me a chance 
I suppose that’s all I really want