07.08.16

Dear self,
Stop being such a dick and maybe things will get better.
Dear self,
Seriously, stop being a dick.
Dear self,
What’s going on with you lately? I’m not sure I like who you are becoming. Work on that.
Dear self,
What did I tell you about being such a dick? It’s like you’re not even listening to me anymore.
Dear self,
I miss you, where are you, I’ve lost you. Please, come back to me.
Dear self,
I fucking hate you, kill yourself.
Dear self,
I didn’t mean what I said last time, please forgive me?
Dear self,
You haven’t been answering my letters. I hope you’re alright, please let me know that you’re alright… I stay up thing about you, worrying. I miss you. Please write back soon.
Dear self,
You can’t ignore me forever. Stop being such a dick!
Dear self,
I’m not sure how long I can do this for. I love you, but I hate you. You can’t just ignore me.
Dear self,
Missing you.
Dear self,
I don’t think I can do this without you.
Dear self,
Please… answer me.
Dear self,
I’m so lonely without you.
Dear self,
How long do I have to wait?
Dear self,
Please…
Dear self,
…
Dear self,
I wish you could see this view.
Dear self,
I need you.
Dear self,
I hope the cool air chills my nerve endings. I don’t want to feel anymore. It’s too hard without you.
Dear self,
I’ve made a choice that I’m not sure you’d approve of.
Dear self,
If you want to stop me, meet me near the cliff face, cut through the sunflower field to get here faster.
Dear self,
It doesn’t look like you’re coming. I’m not sure I can keep waiting.
Dear self,
I love you.
Dear self,
I hate you.
Dear self,
Forgive me.
Dear self,
Don’t forget me. Please.
Dear self,
Goodbye.