06.24.15

Inspire me

You inspire me
Your being
Your writing
Your existence
I want it all
I want you
I can’t have you
I want you more
I need your thoughts 
I need your dreams
I want your words on the page
I want you to want me
Like that cheesy 90s song
I love that song
I love you
I hate you 
I hate everything except for you
I need your words
I need your thoughts
Inspire me once more
Hate me so I can grow
Your silence makes me weak
Your absence makes me weep
I don’t cry
I yearn 
I long for the days with you
I wander alone 
I weep dry tears
I wake in sweat from dreams of you
Nightmares because they’re all untrue 
You aren’t here
I’m not there
We are nothing
We could be everything
You don’t want me
I wander in darkness
I don’t need you
I want you 
I choose this sadness
I accept this pain
You inspire me
There is nothing I can do
All choices lead to loving you
All end in pain
What must I do for you my muse
Kill this passion? 
End this sadness?
You inspire me
And the pain does just as well
It is an extension of you
It is the price I will pay every time
I cannot let go of you
My inspiration 
My muse